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I could feel the fear rise and subside
As if it were breath, In and out
To understand it was to understand  myself
What was my love, what was my doubt

And the more I was in silence with myself
And prayed
Questions became answers
And I was no longer slave

To self-doubt ,fear
and the dark
I was born to embrace myself
the light, faith, hope and love
from the depths of my heart

At the Dawn of the Morn

At the dawn of the morn
I slipped back into sleep
To dream a dream of you
Your love I feel through
And through

I’m in spaces and places
That I’ve never been before
You call me softly into yours
And  kiss with a passion so pure
So sure

And time stands still once again
Doubts that lingered
Melted away
You were here now,

Our embrace renewed 

Our soul old vow

And as fleetingly as the dream came
My consciousness pulled me back
I wish I could have remained
But I’m left to find you
On this earthly plane

The sun glows through the curtains
And unwillingly I awake
One day we will come upon each other
One day we can have a chance at together

As the Lightning Danced Across the Sky

As the lightning danced across the sky
The melody of her voice swirled around me
Calmed and soothed by her softness
Enchanted by her Beauty

In that moment time stood still
Lost in her eyes
As the lightning danced
Danced across the sky

The flower of my soul
After so long has unfolded
The wall I put up
Broken down and melted

I rise and I fall
I'm awake, I'm alive
I thought I died once before
But my heart did survive

She sings 
and my being soars
What soul can ask for more

This Memory and This Moment

There's a storm in my heart
A longing inside
It rips all fear apart
I can no longer hide

These feelings so strong
From an intimate dance shared
Swaying and swooning in each other's embrace
In that moment the world stood still
They stopped and stared

At us two who were just in our moment
That quenched our own thirsts within
A soulfelt affection
It was blissful to feel this way again

The night it ended
And the connection fades away
I'm left in the memory
How I wish you could stay

But All I have is the memory
And how it made me feel
My heart is awake
Enough for now has been revealed

I can be sad now
But no tears shall I shed
For in that moment I had something real
In that moment I became alive again

Forward

I retrace my steps to the moment
Walking forward 
backwards through time 
To the time when 
this emotion was peace to me
To the union that was divine

She was in that moment my all
And my love unconditional flowed
I became the peace in her turbulence
Giving hope to her falling world

I thought my heart inexhaustible
I believed my soul strong
But in giving I could not entirely shield myself
My faith wavered, and so I began to fall

I may have been falling ever since
But now I have reached the ground
I know now that this was part of my journey
A lesson and test in love

That love is a decision 
Not only an emotion we feel
And although the feeling is not mutual
It doesn't mean it's not real

That we should give without fear
but also know when we should let go
Because not everyone is meant for us
That's just the way life goes

Easier said than done
but it's how we get to grow and become wise
to be strong for those who come after us
so that we give them part of our light

So from walking back I move forward now
I begin ascend from where I fell
To continue each day to love
And rise above 
To hope and believe again

From Embers to Flame

blow the embers
but blow them ever so gently
the twigs and tinder surround
their affection can ignite desire 
in this dormant but beating heart

you blow
filling your lungs deeply 
when breathing
Inhaling
eyes closed 
on your knees
for to call to love is to pray
making your lips to kiss when you're exhaling

cup your hands over the flame
how its grows as it warms your soul
love it grows when you add your trust to the fire
for desire and passion only last so long

faith's gentle breeze now dances 
even when the doubtful night surrounds
in the flames 
love is found
you are at peace
you are sound

Bravely

I often think about
Where do I begin to embrace myself?
At the same time I also ask myself why do I need to?
But in the same vein the answer to that is because
many a time I was able to let myself be shaken by
what other people thought I was

I had no real faith in myself
In the person I had become
but that as well is not true
I could not have been wandering around in aimless existence all this time
Or could I?

Nah.....
I had purpose
but
I can't remember what it was
Else I probably do
Then
Where did it go to?
Why had I allowed myself to be clouded?

The simple answer, without going into details was that I trusted to easily.
I trusted when I should have been cautious.
I trusted when I should have acknowledged the red flags
Thus began the undermining of my own being
And by my own hand

But it is done
It is the past
What is left is left
And most importantly
I am alive to tell the tale
And I can still move forward

I must say
It is not easy
Separating the truth from the lies
Existing in a world where you can't trust anyone
But it teaches me how to be stronger
From the inside going out

Many times, I've asked questions about why I could be betrayed
By people I trust
By even who I loved and claimed to love me
But that is a downward spiral to despair and mental muddle
We don't want to be there
It is a place of misery

I have taken my time
for the dust to settle
and even so
Taken time to reconnect myself to the things that give me strength
That inspired my faith 
For these things are the core truth of my being
My purpose

Thus
I move forward
The process is not easy
Sometimes I think I move forward
Only move back
But I still keep moving 
To heal
One moment at a time
One heartbeat at a time
Knowing that I have purpose and reason
That above all else
In the midst of fear
I will embrace whatever may come
I will stand up for my beliefs
And that to understand and be at peace
I must trust myself
I must love myself
Forward I move
and Bravely I go