Poui in Bloom

Poui in bloom,

Pink and yellow flowers scattered in the breeze,

In my memory I am searching for you,

But you fly away like the blossoms of these trees

You were there with me at my side

Just a short time before

You held me close and kissed me dearly

But you don’t any more

You say that I’m too attached

And that my affection pushes you away

But I keep giving though I don’t receive

The depth of my pain grows with each day

I’m numb now, and it feels like we’ve grown apart

You fade more and more each day

And so I see the fractures in my breaking heart

You’re not the same person I first kissed

There is only emptiness where there should be bliss

I’ve lost the love who held me at first sight

I’ve lost the promise you gave me with your eyes

the view from my heart

People may speak about their first love or their second or their last
but I prefer to look upon each love as a love unto itself
unique in itself
having no comparison
no equal and no other
they are the only eternities we have in our mortal lives
for they touch through our hearts to the depths of our immortal souls

within from without

This poison within has festered from without

Now it borrows deeply coursing through the veins of my soul

I’ve changed my mind many a time

But never in my life have I been as lost as this

I’m adrift without a sail, without a rudder

Just holding onto my heart and my soul

Up and down I go

I just want to catch my falling self

Up and down I go

This turbulence of being

This turbulence of stress

Looking within, I say let it go

Praying within, I say let it flow

Crying within, I see the cracks

Bleeding within, I know I can never go back

I can never go back to the man I once was

I need to walk forward to the man I must become