From Embers to Flame

blow the embers
but blow them ever so gently
the twigs and tinder surround
their affection can ignite desire 
in this dormant but beating heart

you blow
filling your lungs deeply 
when breathing
Inhaling
eyes closed 
on your knees
for to call to love is to pray
making your lips to kiss when you're exhaling

cup your hands over the flame
how its grows as it warms your soul
love it grows when you add your trust to the fire
for desire and passion only last so long

faith's gentle breeze now dances 
even when the doubtful night surrounds
in the flames 
love is found
you are at peace
you are sound

Bravely

I often think about
Where do I begin to embrace myself?
At the same time I also ask myself why do I need to?
But in the same vein the answer to that is because
many a time I was able to let myself be shaken by
what other people thought I was

I had no real faith in myself
In the person I had become
but that as well is not true
I could not have been wandering around in aimless existence all this time
Or could I?

Nah.....
I had purpose
but
I can't remember what it was
Else I probably do
Then
Where did it go to?
Why had I allowed myself to be clouded?

The simple answer, without going into details was that I trusted to easily.
I trusted when I should have been cautious.
I trusted when I should have acknowledged the red flags
Thus began the undermining of my own being
And by my own hand

But it is done
It is the past
What is left is left
And most importantly
I am alive to tell the tale
And I can still move forward

I must say
It is not easy
Separating the truth from the lies
Existing in a world where you can't trust anyone
But it teaches me how to be stronger
From the inside going out

Many times, I've asked questions about why I could be betrayed
By people I trust
By even who I loved and claimed to love me
But that is a downward spiral to despair and mental muddle
We don't want to be there
It is a place of misery

I have taken my time
for the dust to settle
and even so
Taken time to reconnect myself to the things that give me strength
That inspired my faith 
For these things are the core truth of my being
My purpose

Thus
I move forward
The process is not easy
Sometimes I think I move forward
Only move back
But I still keep moving 
To heal
One moment at a time
One heartbeat at a time
Knowing that I have purpose and reason
That above all else
In the midst of fear
I will embrace whatever may come
I will stand up for my beliefs
And that to understand and be at peace
I must trust myself
I must love myself
Forward I move
and Bravely I go 

Let

Let us look closer
Let us look into our hearts
Let us touch our souls in this moment
It feels like I've known you from the start

Flowing into this kiss
While our arms and hands soothe in embrace
Let the walls we put up fall down
For making love begins with grace

The tingling sensations we share
Bodies trembling in anticipation
Enveloped in this yearning
We grow towards satisfaction

Now as one we share
What these bodies have not given before
Where heaven and earth meet
Our passions want nothing more

The sweet perfume of bliss
And the deep gaze we share with our eyes
There is no other emotion but this
This love is no surprise

We are Enough

Loss comes so suddenly sometimes
In most ways it comes as death
in almost other instances
the breaking of a heart from the loss of a friend
the loss of a kindred spirit, a lover

It is an inevitability of life
And there is no manual for dealing with it
All of us cope differently
We talk, we cry, we keep it inside,
We write, we sing, go on drives
Anything
All in an effort to understand
For closure
For us to move on

Because we are alive
And for us to do that
We need to have clarity
But there are times we don't get that
Mostly we don't
It may come a month, 6 months or years later
And because we want to hear it from the person who's gone
From their lips
or by God's grace their angel

Life is as such though
that we must live and move on
Despite the absence of this
In the meantime
what do we do?
How do we move on?
I don't have all the answers
But we need to start by
forgiveness for them and for ourselves
For whatever was said or unsaid
Done or undone

Holding on will only keep us in a cycle
A cycle with a downward spiral
Where we shouldn't be
We are meant to move forward
And letting go
Accepting ourselves
Loving ourselves
Enough to forgive them and ourselves to set us free

Their loss is not our fault
We blame ourselves
But it is not our fault
Neither is it theirs
For we know not everything that may affect them
and their parting
And that is why we should seek the serenity to let go
of our hurt
and of them

Memories will always be there
But we need to accept them
the good and the bad
learn from them
and move on
For doing any other thing will not add value to us

Let us value ourselves
For we are alive
We are this moment
And more importantly
We are enough
If were were not enough to be on the earth
God would not have put us here
 
Let us love ourselves and forgive
For although the past is gone
We are enough to be here now
We are enough to move forward
For we are love
We are life and alive

Be not afraid

Love thyself, be not afraid
Look into thy heart
Go forth be brave

Trust your mind
That forward life must go
Embrace your heart to let go of the past
So life would flow

Open your being to God
Ask him to help guide the pieces into place
Despite the turbulence around
Love will give you grace

Aflow

All of these songs
all of these words
all of these feelings
begin to unfold

All that I knew
I have to unlearn
because to love you means 
to love myself first


For I didn't think myself enough
And I searched my soul to find
That unconditional love for myself was the key
To bridge my inner divide


It is a decision
a commitment without doubt
with my whole being
mind, body, heart and soul can't be apart

Now as I breathe
and with my blood aflow
all is in unison
life in harmony glows

So I commit now
to walk off the ledge
I fall 
so that I will catch myself

In the arms of love
and upon the wings of faith
soaring upon songs of heaven
brave to be open again 

Committing to myself
and now committing to you
let my words be my prayer
let my life be Truth 

Discovery

Self discovery is an ongoing task.
And although it's done for yourself, 
It doesn't happen by yourself

As humans we are creatures who exist with a purpose,
And that purpose can be realised through and by many ways

We are each crucial to our self discovery and evolution,
as beings divine and cosmic

We by ourselves have great power,
but for all that the power is,
it is inspired by the world in and around us

That is why the more positive our actions are to ourselves
and the more positive people we surround ourselves with
the stronger we will grow and also the stronger they will be as well.

We were not put here just for ourselves
but for each other.