Let Go

What is this I feel under my chest
Weighing me down like a granite vest
Clouding my mind
In haze smoke and ash
Holding me in doubt
Keeping me in distrust


You have come to me a blessing
You, my love 
And I am being held and shackled
By my own self, my own emotion
Drowning in an ocean
Of my own creation
As thick as oil it would seem


The more I write
The heavier I feel
I could only wish to release myself from this

I feel like I'm a burden
I have to reteach myself to love

Without childish fears and jealousy

I think it is the guilt of it which plagues me

and my discomfort with it as being human

I can't dwell in this fear any longer
and I will not
For with you I desire to be happy
with you I desire to be more than whole

My being: shed the shell, veil and shackles of the past
To dust and ashes they must go

From my rebirth may my love be reborn
The flame in my heart now burns anew