Remember

In the middle of the the night I lie awake and think of you
I remember all the moments we shared The precious time we spared
That made moments into eternity

And sometimes I wonder if my thoughts could travel this time and space
To dance on what remains of love's grace

To find you in your dreams
That as my heart beats of you
You'll smile in your sleep with sweet memory

Rememering the exuberance with which our hearts, bodies and souls bloomed The brief love that swayed in passionate dance under the rising sun and phasing moon

If you can one day look on these and smile
Then I can find solace And peace of mind

For this love would have indeed been real
And not only something that we briefly had a chance to feel....

Still Learning

I know so much
Yet my actions deceive my mind
I hold on when I should let go
I persist when I should give space

How I wish that I would have acted better
How I wish that I hadn't become enveloped by my own emotions
In hindsight I see wisdom
In hindsight the truth is ever so clear

Yet now I can save nothing
The time has gone and the ship has sailed
All I can do is learn 
Learn from my past

I asked God to teach me to love unconditionally
And he has given me the lessons to learn
I thought that I could have remained in a relationship for it to happen
And I could have
But I didn't give myself and my partner the space
We needed that

Kahlil Gibran spoke about standing like the pillars of the temple
I do have and hold the regret that I didn't live this wisdom
Perhaps I had to lose to learn
And let go and forgive myself for the loss all the same
For holding on to anything in life is the surest way to imprison ourselves
And kill anything we love

Love's path isn't smooth and has ever been one of learning
It is a path of surrender instead of fighting
Of release rather than possession
Love's path is the freedom to be

The nurturing of one's own love
Like and eternal flame within
To be shared with the world
But never diminished and extinguished despite life's trials

Admittedly the humanity of it all 
Is a daily process
And your self love will be tested
For life in living demands that you face what you need to overcome 
for you to grow, for your soul to soar. 

My task now is to let go with love
Holding no more onto pain, 
to anger 
nor thoughts of what may have been

My task is to let go of the lies 
That I told myself were true
To unlearn with love
To be reborn in my own skin
Letting my light shine first and foremost

And it is a task
Because I am human
And I still feel
God is in me but I am not as strong 
Yet I will be
I will be able feel the pain after loss
And with grace accept why what I cared about has left
Trusting what will come next
Loving myself and others to know that life is short
And that we are not meant to be here forever
But to give as much love to this world before it's our time to leave. 

The Circles and Cycles of Life

The Circles and Cycles of Life

Ever do they change

You become in the confluence of each other

Spinning together dancing, entwined engaged

The heart of our hearts

Our souls call each other’s names

Then life awakens our fears

And slowly our dance begins to fade

Our gravities become destructive

Our planets separate

From within we are undone

Sent away to solitude again

The elements of what we were

Remain carried deep within our core

Molten, bubbling our hearts

Forever within each other evermore

Our orbits seek to find others
Or we remain far from the sun to find peace
When will we align again

Only time will tell, only love can transcend to heal

Time in its Time

The words will flow in their own time
Just like the tears fall when you need to cry

Our souls will speak truth when it is ready to be revealed
For now let our beings pray in silence so that we may be healed

Because faith needs space to be free to grow                                     
And hope is led by the light even when darkness shows
 
For Love is filled with them both
So that the flower of our lives to each other can unfold

Grant me Grace: the midst

I'm just trying to find the best way to be in this world.

Learning to love, trust and accept others and everything.

To be without hate, anger and fear.

I just want to be the best man and the best human I can be for myself and for those I love.

My path thus far has been challenging.
I have had my ups and downs.

And from my experiences I am just learning to take the best from them so I can be wiser, to help others who come after me.

It is not easy, I have had more times of despair but they have been there to test my faith in not only others but most of all myself.

God grant me thy grace, to be strong and to love more than all that there is.

Thoughts

I always think about right and wrong
I always have
I always try to be the good boy scout
Do the good deeds
Be kind
Hold the door
Go the extra mile

Then there comes the times you get tested
Your goodness is taken advantage of
Your kindness becomes a welcome mat

But at the end of it all
The world is an unforgiving place for the most part

And "goodness" isn't genuine
It, for the most part, with most people
seems to come with an ulterior motive

So what do good people do?
How do we survive?
Do we become embittered and go for revenge?
Maybe or maybe not
But here's the truth,
We all feel
And I would  be lying if I said revenge never crossed my mind
Would it be worth it?
No
But you energies have to be channeled somewhere and in someway

Trust me when I say
I have lived long enough to see
The evil that men do come back to them
And their suffering is their karma

The sayings are all true
"As you make your bed in it, so shall you lay"
"Do unto others as you shall have them do unto you"

What you give, you will get
That's life

Who you surround yourself with will influence you the most
Their morals will become your life

So what I have learned
Well.....
We are all human, we feel,
And We must allow our emotions to be felt
Do we act on them
No
Think always, actions have consequences
And your instincts are very real and also guide you in the right direction if you let them

The truth is, we will all get hurt and disappointed one way or another
And when this happens
We need to get past it not be crippled by it
Never stop moving forward
Grieve while in motion
Take your time, but don't stop moving
Don't stifle what you feel either
Because you will explode or implode

Love is a saving grace
It's not easy
It is a decision
It is powerful
It is courage
It is strength
It is vulnerability
It is grace
It is our purpose

Only if we weren't so battered and bruised by one another to realize it and embrace the fact.

This world is a grand mess,
Chaotic
and in other moments so Beautiful

We're just too caught up in our fears (whether right or wrong)
To see it

But  you know what
We'll all realize the truth and our purpose in time
hopefully in the right time (not sooner or later)

We can only try our best to heal each other and ourselves
With openness, truth and love

That's the only way to function.
To live.
To be.............

Man

In my mind I contemplate the hypocricy of man
How we all hide behind lies to save ourselves at the cost of others
How selfish we are
When all that is needed to go forward is goodness
We are rarely upfront
There is always a catch
Cheers and blessings to those who are true
Who live their truth
Who despite being afraid, live anyway
Who love anyway
Who know that courage is living and that love is at the source of it all
Goodnight