Thoughts

I always think about right and wrong
I always have
I always try to be the good boy scout
Do the good deeds
Be kind
Hold the door
Go the extra mile

Then there comes the times you get tested
Your goodness is taken advantage of
Your kindness becomes a welcome mat

But at the end of it all
The world is an unforgiving place for the most part

And "goodness" isn't genuine
It, for the most part, with most people
seems to come with an ulterior motive

So what do good people do?
How do we survive?
Do we become embittered and go for revenge?
Maybe or maybe not
But here's the truth,
We all feel
And I would  be lying if I said revenge never crossed my mind
Would it be worth it?
No
But you energies have to be channeled somewhere and in someway

Trust me when I say
I have lived long enough to see
The evil that men do come back to them
And their suffering is their karma

The sayings are all true
"As you make your bed in it, so shall you lay"
"Do unto others as you shall have them do unto you"

What you give, you will get
That's life

Who you surround yourself with will influence you the most
Their morals will become your life

So what I have learned
Well.....
We are all human, we feel,
And We must allow our emotions to be felt
Do we act on them
No
Think always, actions have consequences
And your instincts are very real and also guide you in the right direction if you let them

The truth is, we will all get hurt and disappointed one way or another
And when this happens
We need to get past it not be crippled by it
Never stop moving forward
Grieve while in motion
Take your time, but don't stop moving
Don't stifle what you feel either
Because you will explode or implode

Love is a saving grace
It's not easy
It is a decision
It is powerful
It is courage
It is strength
It is vulnerability
It is grace
It is our purpose

Only if we weren't so battered and bruised by one another to realize it and embrace the fact.

This world is a grand mess,
Chaotic
and in other moments so Beautiful

We're just too caught up in our fears (whether right or wrong)
To see it

But  you know what
We'll all realize the truth and our purpose in time
hopefully in the right time (not sooner or later)

We can only try our best to heal each other and ourselves
With openness, truth and love

That's the only way to function.
To live.
To be.............

Man

In my mind I contemplate the hypocricy of man
How we all hide behind lies to save ourselves at the cost of others
How selfish we are
When all that is needed to go forward is goodness
We are rarely upfront
There is always a catch
Cheers and blessings to those who are true
Who live their truth
Who despite being afraid, live anyway
Who love anyway
Who know that courage is living and that love is at the source of it all
Goodnight

Present

Being present in my mind now
With all that I face and feel
I know now what to let go of
I know what is real

I must let go of doubt
Pain and all the forms of fear
That cloud my heart and mind
I must face them with courage
and understand their nature to find

Where my strength and faith lay within my soul
Love is a power stronger than all
Anger can only betray our hearts
By its venom we all will fall

Jealousy reflects our lack of trust in ourselves
And the peace we have within
I know now to be patient with myself
And Love myself if I truly want to Live.

When

For all in this world becomes clear
When the being chooses love over fear
When the spirit hopes, rather than be in despair

When we trust ourselves
More than doubt
When we know
Instead of overthinking to figure out

Let our choice be happiness
For ourselves and those who with us abide
Let our choice be to live
And not to hide

For we are born of light
And it is the light we are born to impart
For the light is our happiness
And the happiness the unconditional love in our heart

God and Goddess

A confessed love too quickly
This maze of emotions sway me

Searching to rationalize what she said
I know the truth but so much tumbles in my head

I am happy and a bit sad
walking this line I have

For she’s my friend and my guide
Beautiful, strong, vulnerable and wise.

She’s a woman, a goddess, not yet realised
She will be all she needs for herself, her true love she will find

She speaks to me, a man, a god yet to be
She  said “Don’t rush into love,  give only who show they are worthy.”

Not many women who call themselves my friend have given this advice
How blessed am I that she has been able to give of her heart of hearts and this wisdom provide

I can see why my confession was rushed
The god saw the goddess and gave their love and trust.

But our bodies and minds still hesitant and afraid
I offer a prayer to wait and be brave

Who knows if she may be my soul mate, or a kindred spirit in life
I believe we were friends in incarnations before
I believe all will be revealed in time

When do you know.....

When do you know...
What is it that turns this knowledge wise...
What sets it apart from the rest of times. ...
Can you step back and look with unclouded eyes?

How do you know?...
Is it the way you look into her eyes. ...
The way she's close to you and you realise...
She is the only one in this world. ...
No one can take her place by your side. .....
                                         
My soul it whispers her name and smiles....
My heart is so proud it sings...
There is no doubt in my mind...
My body unwinds. ...
And I am alive... but not head over heels.....
Love flows so naturally. .. I don't need to be healed...for this love is real.

When do you know?....It's when you decide.

Sometimes I type the words only to erase

I wonder what truly matters

Although I truly know already
Because we are all born knowing
One way or another

We know because we hesitate
And think about our actions
At least the sane ones do

And this hesitation comes from our own learning
and creation of barriers that hold us 

 They often start without
And works its way within

We all start off, conceived in knowing
Conceived in love
But in our birthing and baptism
We are forced to learn away from the truth of this knowing
The truth of our souls

But in us,
for us who are not inclined to follow
Always burn questions
Thus we seek to learn the answers
And unlearn the untruth

But this is a struggle in a world of lies
A world of flies
And so many have died
in blissful unknowing
With the blood from their soul flowing

I do not wish to be in that comfort of many
For I would not want to die
To die
Living a lie