Sometimes

In life

we are called upon by internal or external circumstance

to confront

our demons

to

exorcise them

and 

cut them

from our existence

in ways that we may deem right

sometimes we push people away

                                                   because after a time of blind faith

                                                                                                    we suddenly see them for who they are

                                         and we run 

                                                 to save

                                           ourselves

perhaps there may be something wrong with them and ourselves

                                                             sometimes it may just be us 

                                                                      that we need to fix

                                                   and we cut ties 

                                                        to save them

we're not all brave to stand and fight

or to have the clarity of faith and wisdom to remain

 and heal ourselves 

even whilst trying to heal others

but 

in truth

that time of separation 

seeks to bring to us

strength

courage

understanding

      and faith

I have realised that is it at this time that

                                                          the universe

sometimes finds a way of returning us to those we cut away

              because the healing process is not complete until we encounter them again

or maybe we don't need them to heal, perhaps all we need is time

                                         and to forgive ourselves 

                                                                           and let them go

                                              in unconditional love 

I don't know really

I just write what I experience

Run!

one step 
to two
walking
at a pace to a jog


breathe in from the mouth
out through the nose
building a rhythm
left to right leg


moving right to left arm
twist
shoulders
propel
torso
pelvis hips
land
impact
energy 
propel
lift off
push jog


flow
breathe bro
breathe
in through the nose


legs hurt
deep breath
air 
oxygen
fat the fuel
electric the fire
combusting muscular
heart pumping
harder harder


sweat running
as fast as my legs
the water
the salt
throat dry
swallow 
saliva
the hydrator


the lights flying by
people
running walking talking
past me, opposite me
slowing down
focus bro
almost there


the pain
the cramps
all in the mind
just in your mind
let go
lift your legs
let go
open your mind
open your heart
open your soul
to the energy within an around


you're almost back to where you've started
the end is where you begin
to see
you can make one more
when you do that
you know you can go three

Your Love

It is the light

Cutting through the darkness

The warmth and comfort

When the weather storms and the rain so cold

It is the forgiveness

When all seek to condemn

It is the sheath o'er the blade

And the support when all else falls away

It is the undying faith

When the mind can no longer think

and mine eyes no longer see

It is the science, the magic,

the spiritual, the prayer

Cosmic, eternal and beautiful, unconditional

and in this short life so rare

Circle, Cycle, Chains

It seems I'm in an infinite loop
Going in cirles in my mind
Although I know you're poison
I still search for you to find


A hope that you could give back
what I allowed you to take away
But in my heart
It can never return
I don't have the faith you can change


Yet why is it so hard to bleed you out
get you out of my veins
You're a stain on my soul
A scar on my heart
this cycle goes round, again and again


I'm so scared to have love now
but I must gather the strength to move on
to shatter these chains ingrained in my being
to lift myself out of this hole
to have faith, to be strong once more